14/09/2018
In just 1 month, a lot have changed.
My team, the EMEA side has restructuring, where our work are gonna be transferred to Bucharest and we're now basically jobless. The good part is that we are able to rotate to other teams, the bad part is that we are separating.
I'm not bragging or so, but I'm among the lucky ones within the team. I've only been in Dell for 8months, therefore I am not eligible enough for a promotion. After the announcement of the restructuring, I had a 1 on 1 with my manager. She invited me to join her team in the APJ side. But I thought that this is the chance that I could rotate earlier as compared to other colleagues. From the time I entered Dell, Jordan has been telling me to join the Revenue team. And co-incidentally, Revenue Team is actually hiring. So I actually went for a indirect interview and I succeeded.
Initially, withing Dell for the past 8months, I have always wanted to join the APJ part of Intercompany Team, cause I've never thought I have the chance to move out within this 1 and a half year time. But it is a bit stressful that of all the sudden, this actually happened, and I couldn't accept the fact that I'm actually moving out. I'm not ready at all.
My manager was wishing that I would join her (probably it's because Terry is rotating and she couldn't find a right candidate). But at the same time I didn't wanna waste this opportunity to rotate out early. After many discussion with many colleagues (whether or not I know them), I decided to stay in the APJ side. My teammates are all really dissapointed in me.
For the first reason that I think my manager wouldn't like if I rotate to another organisation. She was expecting me to stay or to join the GAS organization. But unexpectedly, I went beyond. Another reason is that I'm really not ready to join the new team. There are too many uncertainties there. Too risky. So I decided to stay.
So, my team is separating in like a month time. But luckily, we're still in the same floor except for Xian Zheng. He's going to like another dimension of work with a promotion. Terry has been promoted too and going to the payroll team.
It feels so sad when I first knew we're actually separating. At times, I would have teary eyes when I thought of it. I mean, we are all really one family. Billy too said he's really sad. There's one day after his meeting, he came out really emotional. went dinner with him after that and he tod me he's really emotional cause for one moment he realized that we're actually separating. In Dell, for us accounting department, we're one of the most united team compare to other teams. So it's really a sad thing.
Also, Jordan has left Dell. I basically have no friend. In just a blink of an eye, everything change. In just a month time, we're gonna be so different. I would really miss the time when Billy and I would turn to each other and talk about random stuff. I would really miss the time when I would hear Xian Zheng and Pei Ee tease each other. I would really miss the time when Terry would IM all of us for lunch and also would randomly say those X-rated topics with us.
Lunch would be so different without them. Our cube would be so different without them. Our team building would be so different without them. (now that I'm saying these, I'm actually having teary eyes). Everything would be so different without them.
I just chose to go right where nothing is left.
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