Last week's TGIF, I went out for dinner with my ex-colleagues. It was really fun being with them. I mean seriously, they are like the best colleagues I've ever worked with. Jimmy has been really crazy all night long, shouting out loud, making fun of things, having exaggerated actions and stuff. He;s just so funny.
While Jordan is definitely his gay partner where Jimmy kept molesting him and I'm like the excuse for Jordan to run away from Jimmy. Kher Shin is still the most prettiest and polite one! I love this girl! Although I talked and joked to Jimmy the most that night.
And my crush? He's like hearts all over. He's kinda quiet that night although he still jokes around but he's still hearts all over. I think he became fitter than ever. Still so smart looking and fit. And still so taking care of people around him. Again, when we were about to go home, he just offered to walk me to my car. *Fell in love on him all over again, and again*. But our car is like so near to each other. So, no long walks alone. In the middle of the meet ups, I tried to ask him out with another gang of friends but I guess he refused to go. *Sobs...*
Sometimes, when I'm down or frustrated, I still think of him. But I know he's busy with his stuff. He has his problems and frustrations. So, I guess thinking about his wise words from the past would already satisfy me. Well, at least I don't 'can't-stop-thinking-of-him' after the meet up like the previous one. Gone through him tho?
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I don't know why lately I've been thinking about 'that' guy. I don't know what triggers in me that I was hoping we could talk it through. Was it because it was near to the 1 year since he 'looked' for me? I don't know. I unconsciously had followed him in Instagram. But nothing much after that. At lonely night times, I would hope that he would text me or something like that just to talk things through. But I guess if it really happens, I'll still be a jerk cause he was a jerk to me before.
Maybe Ah Wei's words was the cause of the trigger. I mean she could be all done with Amanda but still such friends and she still talks about her nicely at times. From there, I really felt like a jerk that I never forgive and let go of the grudge which is still in me. But whenever I think of the words he spited at me, I just got so mad and though it's not worth the consideration!
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But whatever it is, my crush would take my mind of everything. Besides my Mr Man. Lol! My next post is gonna be the new year resolution again. 2016 is gonna end so soon!
Merry Christmas!
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